The irony of this statement is that I mumbled it....at 8pm on a Tuesday night...as I sat in front of the track at Oakwood High School...lacing up my running shoes...preparing to run 14 400's. Clearly I was going to do it...how could I not...I am 6.5 weeks....from what I have been working towards...it's become a love...an amazing experience...with a side of fatigue and suffering and pain...always...well almost always...done with a huge smile! This actually is something that I want to define me...I love being a runner girl...I love running wild...I love just exactly where my shoes are taking me! It's possible to do anything you put your mind to...it's possible to fall in love with anything...especially when it can change your life...and it's possible for that love to make you want to do everything better...and to expect better in your life!
The greatest oak was once a little nut who held its ground. ~Author Unknown
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Monday, August 1, 2011
The Road Less Traveled
It's been a while since my last blog! And yes during my short break...I ran a half marathon...and started training for a full! What an interesting experience that has been! It's so amazing to see what your body is capable of...and to see what your mind can overcome as you push yourself past boundaries you never thought you could beat! I am currently in week 12 of an intense 18 week training! In addition to short distance runs, tempo runs, speed workouts, hill workouts, and long distance runs...I am trying to mentally prepare my self to not only finish but to qualify to Boston...with a time of 3:40! I am loving every minute of what I am doing...from the runs that go so perfectly I feel on top of the world to the runs I know I could have done better to feeling like my body is a well oiled machine to chowing down Advil to dull the pain! It's been 12 weeks of taking myself to the brink and pushing myself in ways I never thought possible! I feel amazing..and I have never been in this kind of shape in my life...it's such an amazing accomplishment! Just recently I finished the first of three 20 mile runs...I never in my whole life thought I would or could do something like that...but I did! It was difficult and there were a few times I wanted to quit...but I staid focused and kept going...no ache or pain was going to keep me from completing this milestone!
I think what is so fantastic is that at any point in your life...you can change one thing and
that one thing can change your life! For me I added running...and from there my whole world opened up. My goals changed my values and morals changed...the way I look and think took on
a whole new perspective! I made one change after another all based on one thing...and I love it! Now running 20 miles...that may not be everyone's one thing...but everyone has something! The awesome thing about life...is that part of the process is finding what makes you
happy...and then going after it with full force...we only have this one life...it's so important to find the things and surround yourself with the people that complete the life you want to live...even if that means taking the road less traveled!
"Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference."
I think what is so fantastic is that at any point in your life...you can change one thing and
that one thing can change your life! For me I added running...and from there my whole world opened up. My goals changed my values and morals changed...the way I look and think took on
a whole new perspective! I made one change after another all based on one thing...and I love it! Now running 20 miles...that may not be everyone's one thing...but everyone has something! The awesome thing about life...is that part of the process is finding what makes you
happy...and then going after it with full force...we only have this one life...it's so important to find the things and surround yourself with the people that complete the life you want to live...even if that means taking the road less traveled!
"Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference."
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Living in a Perfect Life!
"The training and racing experiences have shown me sides of myself that I never knew existed. I've found perseverance, an ability to focus, stubbornness, compulsiveness, bravery, organization, a sense of humor, and a capacity for unbridled joy. "
It's funny...because over the last 7 months I have made more changes in my life than I swear some people actually make in a lifetime! It's been a bit of an overwhelming journey...and what's strange is that I have had an abundance of support...but because changing multiple aspects of your life at the same time is such a solo journey...it's been lonely at times. It’s also been hard to explain to some people who ask me why I am doing what I am doing. I can only say that I am doing it because it didn't feel right not to...I didn't feel healthy looking back I am not sure that I was happy...and above all when it comes time to have a family I want to be a good example for my children. I must admit that I am a live in the moment kind of girl...appreciate what I have now and experience that time to the fullest because you never know what tomorrow will bring. But at the same time I know that there are certain things I have to do today in this moment for my future...because I want to make sure that I am the very best version of myself today and everyday after. Even so...even with that explanation I have still met with some very...surprisingly so...unsupportive people. I was even called selfish by someone very close to me...because I am spending so much time working on my own self rather than going out to drink...and going out to dinner...and staying up late. I can honestly say that although it may seem selfish...I am going for a whole lifestyle change and for the most part...at least right now...it doesn't include a lot of drinking, staying up late or eating out. And I can't say that me choosing my life my health and my future is selfish...I think it's smart and just exactly what I have to do right now...because I am in a place in my life where right now I can choose myself. Additionally my running isn't just your casual distance run...I still can't quite place my finger on where I want to go with this but it is somewhere...and I do feel like I am training...and this is something that I love and am taking very seriously...and I am willing to give up certain things to accommodate this desire right now.
That being said when I saw the quote I posted above I really felt justified in the way that I am feeling right now. My training has brought me to all different levels...and I most certainly have found aspects of myself I never knew existed and even some aspects that I knew existed but that I had lost along the way. Who are we kidding I am very stubborn but I feel like if I am going to be stubborn it should be in a manner that is going to help me...so yes I stubbornly run 6 days a week rain, heat, snow, ice...it doesn't matter I am doing it! I have such a focus a drive a dedication a determination...it's an awesome feeling...so awesome that I am ok with the things I have eliminated from my life to make room for running. It has also given me a since of balance my job is going well, I feel stronger, and with my friendships and relationships I am very focused on building and strengthening the ones that mean the most to me. Training has forced me to become more organized I know it's an extremely important part of my life...but it's not the only part and I am dedicated to making everything I do on a daily basis work together! I don't want to have one thing over another...I want to be able to do it all and have it all...I want a well rounded balanced life! All in all I think it does take bravery to make changes like this...to change your life like this...to almost do the exact opposite of what people normally do...this is not a regular plan...and it takes perseverance and a thick skin to maintain your reasoning for the choices you are making and to be strong enough to take criticism and skeptical looks...and at times renegotiate friendships and relationships when they no longer work in your life as they once did. The last 7 months have been an amazing experience filled with highs and lows...filled with finding out who I am and who those around me really are...filled with figuring out what direction I am taking and just what path I want to take to get there...it's been a strange trip...and an exciting one...and I look forward to the many changes and adventures I have ahead of me...that will no doubt lead to unbridled joy!
It's funny...because over the last 7 months I have made more changes in my life than I swear some people actually make in a lifetime! It's been a bit of an overwhelming journey...and what's strange is that I have had an abundance of support...but because changing multiple aspects of your life at the same time is such a solo journey...it's been lonely at times. It’s also been hard to explain to some people who ask me why I am doing what I am doing. I can only say that I am doing it because it didn't feel right not to...I didn't feel healthy looking back I am not sure that I was happy...and above all when it comes time to have a family I want to be a good example for my children. I must admit that I am a live in the moment kind of girl...appreciate what I have now and experience that time to the fullest because you never know what tomorrow will bring. But at the same time I know that there are certain things I have to do today in this moment for my future...because I want to make sure that I am the very best version of myself today and everyday after. Even so...even with that explanation I have still met with some very...surprisingly so...unsupportive people. I was even called selfish by someone very close to me...because I am spending so much time working on my own self rather than going out to drink...and going out to dinner...and staying up late. I can honestly say that although it may seem selfish...I am going for a whole lifestyle change and for the most part...at least right now...it doesn't include a lot of drinking, staying up late or eating out. And I can't say that me choosing my life my health and my future is selfish...I think it's smart and just exactly what I have to do right now...because I am in a place in my life where right now I can choose myself. Additionally my running isn't just your casual distance run...I still can't quite place my finger on where I want to go with this but it is somewhere...and I do feel like I am training...and this is something that I love and am taking very seriously...and I am willing to give up certain things to accommodate this desire right now.
That being said when I saw the quote I posted above I really felt justified in the way that I am feeling right now. My training has brought me to all different levels...and I most certainly have found aspects of myself I never knew existed and even some aspects that I knew existed but that I had lost along the way. Who are we kidding I am very stubborn but I feel like if I am going to be stubborn it should be in a manner that is going to help me...so yes I stubbornly run 6 days a week rain, heat, snow, ice...it doesn't matter I am doing it! I have such a focus a drive a dedication a determination...it's an awesome feeling...so awesome that I am ok with the things I have eliminated from my life to make room for running. It has also given me a since of balance my job is going well, I feel stronger, and with my friendships and relationships I am very focused on building and strengthening the ones that mean the most to me. Training has forced me to become more organized I know it's an extremely important part of my life...but it's not the only part and I am dedicated to making everything I do on a daily basis work together! I don't want to have one thing over another...I want to be able to do it all and have it all...I want a well rounded balanced life! All in all I think it does take bravery to make changes like this...to change your life like this...to almost do the exact opposite of what people normally do...this is not a regular plan...and it takes perseverance and a thick skin to maintain your reasoning for the choices you are making and to be strong enough to take criticism and skeptical looks...and at times renegotiate friendships and relationships when they no longer work in your life as they once did. The last 7 months have been an amazing experience filled with highs and lows...filled with finding out who I am and who those around me really are...filled with figuring out what direction I am taking and just what path I want to take to get there...it's been a strange trip...and an exciting one...and I look forward to the many changes and adventures I have ahead of me...that will no doubt lead to unbridled joy!
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
If you think you can...your right...if you think you can't...you are probably still right...
I don't think you can become an outstanding runner unless you get a certain amount of enjoyment out of the suffering. You have to enjoy absorbing it, controlling it and—ultimately—overcoming it.
Derek Clayton in The Masters of the Marathon
Normally I end my blog with a quote...some tid bit of inspiration that sort of links the whole thing together...a way for people to maybe retain what I blabbed on and on about for 5 or 6 paragraphs...today...I think the above quote is worthy of its own blog...cause I am pretty sure I have never read anything more true.
One of my links to all things running...is my Facebook page where I have carefully "liked" certain motivational pages...one being Runners World. When I updated my page yesterday and I saw this quote pop up...I can't explain my excitement...I even sent it to a few people who I thought would appreciate it and posted it as my status...it’s totally true!
I wake up almost every day at 5:30 am...hard in and of itself...but then I unconsciously put on my shorts, sports bra, and lace up my shoes...to hop on the treadmill or hit the streets...and punish myself for an hour if not more! But oddly somewhere during mile 1 that punishment turns into pleasure...something that I know I would have regretted living without had I not got up and out of bed! Sometimes I even do something crazier...I go to work...and then I come home and I run again...I just can't get enough!
Lately I do have to say...I have been considering just where I am planning on taking this rekindled love I have of running. Do I really want to hop back on a regular racing circuit...is this just a hobby...is it time to share this love with others and become a cross coach...I am just not sure...but I do think it’s become more then a hobby...I feel like it’s something I want to nurture...and share...and embed into my life...and heck into the lives of anyone that wants’ to do it with me!
I think what I love most is the accomplishment I feel after every single run...because each time I get further along...or I do it faster...or I find something new about myself that I never knew. I think if your not a runner its hard to understand why people do it and for sure why they do it and love it...and that's fair...as the quote above states...you really have to get a certain amount of enjoyment out of the suffering...but I find the feeling you get from overcoming it is well worth the effort.
Running is a time consuming activity especially as you build your mileage...alot goes into going out to run 12 or 13 miles or more...you do have to eat right...and drink water...and stretch...and get pleanty of rest...and right now these are all things that I am willing to do...I have found something that I am passionate about that I want to grow and develop...and I feel that I am lucky because we don't always have the opportunity to find something we really really love to do!
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Courage, sacrifice, determination, commitment, toughness,heart, talent, guts. That's what little girls are made of; the hell with sugar and spice!
Well...sometimes life gives you lemons...and you have the choice to settle and make some lemonaid or get a little creative...and make something all your own! Over the last five weeks I have been MIA on the blog site...and sadly MIA from running!
It all started with some pain...I really didn't think anything of it...I just thought my foot was a little sore...but then it got worse!
I thought if I just took a tiny break...it would get better...and it did...right before it got worse!
After a trip to the orthopedic surgeon...I was sidelined...for 5 weeks...with hopes that it was tendinitis in my ankle...and not a tear.
At this point I had a choice...mope around at the thought of being unable to run...or find something else to do...enter some serious swimming here!
So to the pool I went everyday...I had to...I was trying to hold tight to the training I had built up with hopes that I would be able to run the half marathon still...as sadly I had to already give-up the full marathon.
Funny thing about that swimming...it will absolutely kick your ass! I thought I was strong...because I could go out and run 10 miles...little did I know that was nothing compared to fly, back, breast and free!
3 weeks of this and I felt stronger then ever...but the pain and swelling in my ankle was still there...so back to the doctor...for an MRI...my fingers were crossed...that there would be no tear. As the days passed and I waited for the results...the swelling eased up...and the pain to! By the time I got back to the doctor for the results a week later I was almost pain free...and..there was no tear! As well...I was given the ok to run! So on Monday March 7th...after 5 long weeks...I burst out of work threw my shoes on...and went for the best run ever!
Now I slowly have to ease back into it...and over these last few weeks...I have found a new love also...swimming...that I want to keep in my life...but wow...it was great to tie those shoes back up!
Sadly...I must admit I won't be able to run the full or the half Flying Pig...as I won't be able to get back into that kind of shape in time...but I have accepted that and have decided that I may be able to try my hand at the 10K the day before.
Sometimes life gives you lemons...and it's up to you to figure out what you are going to do with them!
“If one dream should fall and break into a thousand pieces, never be afraid to pick one of those pieces up and begin again.”
It all started with some pain...I really didn't think anything of it...I just thought my foot was a little sore...but then it got worse!
I thought if I just took a tiny break...it would get better...and it did...right before it got worse!
After a trip to the orthopedic surgeon...I was sidelined...for 5 weeks...with hopes that it was tendinitis in my ankle...and not a tear.
At this point I had a choice...mope around at the thought of being unable to run...or find something else to do...enter some serious swimming here!
So to the pool I went everyday...I had to...I was trying to hold tight to the training I had built up with hopes that I would be able to run the half marathon still...as sadly I had to already give-up the full marathon.
Funny thing about that swimming...it will absolutely kick your ass! I thought I was strong...because I could go out and run 10 miles...little did I know that was nothing compared to fly, back, breast and free!
3 weeks of this and I felt stronger then ever...but the pain and swelling in my ankle was still there...so back to the doctor...for an MRI...my fingers were crossed...that there would be no tear. As the days passed and I waited for the results...the swelling eased up...and the pain to! By the time I got back to the doctor for the results a week later I was almost pain free...and..there was no tear! As well...I was given the ok to run! So on Monday March 7th...after 5 long weeks...I burst out of work threw my shoes on...and went for the best run ever!
Now I slowly have to ease back into it...and over these last few weeks...I have found a new love also...swimming...that I want to keep in my life...but wow...it was great to tie those shoes back up!
Sadly...I must admit I won't be able to run the full or the half Flying Pig...as I won't be able to get back into that kind of shape in time...but I have accepted that and have decided that I may be able to try my hand at the 10K the day before.
Sometimes life gives you lemons...and it's up to you to figure out what you are going to do with them!
“If one dream should fall and break into a thousand pieces, never be afraid to pick one of those pieces up and begin again.”
Monday, January 24, 2011
I will prevail...
Sooo...last week was sort of a tough week...I fell on my face Thursday during my run...Thursday night I tried to pinball myself across 35 during the snow storm...Friday was a bit emotional...pretty sure I had post traumatic stress syndrome from the near death experience the night before...not to mention I was in a lot of pain...and Saturday well I decided to end the week with the stomach flu! However through all of that...I managed to run...a lot! What can I say...I'm a freak...I love to run...and it makes me feel better when I do it! I think I feel worse when things happen and I don't get to run...in fact all I could think of on Saturday as I sunk into the deep dark depths of the current stomach bug going around...was at least I finished my 10 miles! But I must say...the events over the last few days...sort of shook my faith! Was I hurting myself doing all this running...do I need to cut back...am I not eating right...how the hell do I hydrate to account for all this madness! These are really questions I can't answer...but the one thing that's keeping me going...is that I just love to do it! I am aware that running is very stressful on the body...and I am also aware that right now the thought of doing a 20 mile training run is very scary! However...I am strong and confidant and extremely motivated which keeps me in perspective...and above all...I know I can do it...and that I will be ready to do that run when the time comes! In fact I think I took dedication to a whole new level on Saturday...and I saw how tough I really was! It was so cold that the only real way to do the 10 mile run was inside on an indoor track...and 90 laps...1 hour and 50 minutes...and the onset of the flu at about mile 8 later...my first 10 mile run was completed! And I never stopped once...I kept the pace steady...and was very happy about my accomplishment!
I think all you can really hope for is to find something that you love to do...and to set goals for your self that are achievable for you...maybe it doesn't have to be so crazy as a marathon...maybe it's a 5k or a 10k...or to walk or run your course faster than you did the week before! It's all about you and your goals and your mindset! I do have to say...and I know I should probably take my own advice...be mindful of your body and what it's telling you it needs! I know I have a tendency to listen to the runners high my body wants...and not to listen to the rest that my body may need...but I realize that about myself...and am working on it ;). It's super important to find the right balance...so that you may continue to love what you do!
"Hell, there are no rules here - we're trying to accomplish something"
Thomas Alva Edison
I think all you can really hope for is to find something that you love to do...and to set goals for your self that are achievable for you...maybe it doesn't have to be so crazy as a marathon...maybe it's a 5k or a 10k...or to walk or run your course faster than you did the week before! It's all about you and your goals and your mindset! I do have to say...and I know I should probably take my own advice...be mindful of your body and what it's telling you it needs! I know I have a tendency to listen to the runners high my body wants...and not to listen to the rest that my body may need...but I realize that about myself...and am working on it ;). It's super important to find the right balance...so that you may continue to love what you do!
"Hell, there are no rules here - we're trying to accomplish something"
Thomas Alva Edison
Thursday, January 20, 2011
And we all fall down...
So...I totally wiped out today 2 miles into my 5 mile run! Thankfully I am the most AMAZING faller...because I was able to flatten out...and keep my face up...so in the end I didn't hurt anything...well maybe I have a banged up elbow...and I may have had the wind knocked out of me...but I recovered quickly and finished the run! But this sort of got me thinking...we all fall down sometimes! At times it’s possible to fall harder than other times...but we all bite the dust every now and then...whether physically or metaphorically...I think that’s just life! It’s hard...and every day is a challenge...but like a great run...life is rewarding...but very clearly has its bumps in the road. But we can’t let those bumps define who we are anymore then we can let one fall end our run! I guess I could have gone inside after I fell...but I had only done two miles...I didn’t want to stop...and there was no reason to I was fine...got my adrenaline pumping a bit...but that's not such a bad thing!
I don’t know about any of you...but I for sure don't want the hard or tricky times to be what define who I am...I want to define who I am based on how I handle those difficult times! It does seem like every day we are dealt a new hand of challenges...relationships are hard to maintain, work is overwhelming, the kids are bouncing off the walls, the house needs to be cleaned, the laundry is piling up, the dog needs to go out...I think you get my drift! Life is the universal balancing act...and some days we keep ourselves up right...and other days...we trip and fall on our faces...and we feel like we should just go home...go to bed and try for a more balanced day tomorrow!
I think it’s important that we remember to do things in our lives that help provide us with balance. It's so easy to get bogged down by the hard things in life...we really have to fight to surround ourselves with what provides us with positive thoughts and feelings. As with anything...the feelings that stick with us the most...are normally the negative ones...I don't know why...maybe they have more of a dramatic impact on our lives or maybe we hold them closer so that we can learn from whatever mistake may have lead to these feelings originally. Whatever the reason...it’s our nature to do this...and I know in my life it’s important that daily I give myself all the positive thoughts, feelings and emotions that I can because I know that I want my life to be characterized by the positive rather than the negative.
These days I find these happy thoughts stem from running and yoga...and I try to do as much of both as I can. It’s hard to find the time...but with anything...I have to balance my running and my yoga into my life...and make them both a priority. And I can honestly say that during the course of the last four months my list of priorities have changed completely also...daily I feel that my life is starting to be in the right order...and I am learning what is most important in my life. Plus...these two things I have incorporated into my life...make me happy...and when I am happy I am calmer...and when I am calmer I am more focused...and when I am more focused I do my work better...and when I do my work better I feel more successful...and when I am more successful I feel more empowered...I could go on and on...but I think you get that one thing leads to another and another. This is not just professionally either...I feel like I want to let people into my life and open up more to those that are already part of my life. Focusing on the positive rather than the negative has lead to some amazing realizations in myself...both good and bad...but these realizations will ultimately make me stronger...happier...and more balanced...hopefully keeping the "falling" to a minimum...and giving me the strength to better handle the situation when I do fall.
Happy balancing everyone...and drive safely home today...it's snowy out there :)
"Even if you fall on your face, you're still moving forward."
I don’t know about any of you...but I for sure don't want the hard or tricky times to be what define who I am...I want to define who I am based on how I handle those difficult times! It does seem like every day we are dealt a new hand of challenges...relationships are hard to maintain, work is overwhelming, the kids are bouncing off the walls, the house needs to be cleaned, the laundry is piling up, the dog needs to go out...I think you get my drift! Life is the universal balancing act...and some days we keep ourselves up right...and other days...we trip and fall on our faces...and we feel like we should just go home...go to bed and try for a more balanced day tomorrow!
I think it’s important that we remember to do things in our lives that help provide us with balance. It's so easy to get bogged down by the hard things in life...we really have to fight to surround ourselves with what provides us with positive thoughts and feelings. As with anything...the feelings that stick with us the most...are normally the negative ones...I don't know why...maybe they have more of a dramatic impact on our lives or maybe we hold them closer so that we can learn from whatever mistake may have lead to these feelings originally. Whatever the reason...it’s our nature to do this...and I know in my life it’s important that daily I give myself all the positive thoughts, feelings and emotions that I can because I know that I want my life to be characterized by the positive rather than the negative.
These days I find these happy thoughts stem from running and yoga...and I try to do as much of both as I can. It’s hard to find the time...but with anything...I have to balance my running and my yoga into my life...and make them both a priority. And I can honestly say that during the course of the last four months my list of priorities have changed completely also...daily I feel that my life is starting to be in the right order...and I am learning what is most important in my life. Plus...these two things I have incorporated into my life...make me happy...and when I am happy I am calmer...and when I am calmer I am more focused...and when I am more focused I do my work better...and when I do my work better I feel more successful...and when I am more successful I feel more empowered...I could go on and on...but I think you get that one thing leads to another and another. This is not just professionally either...I feel like I want to let people into my life and open up more to those that are already part of my life. Focusing on the positive rather than the negative has lead to some amazing realizations in myself...both good and bad...but these realizations will ultimately make me stronger...happier...and more balanced...hopefully keeping the "falling" to a minimum...and giving me the strength to better handle the situation when I do fall.
Happy balancing everyone...and drive safely home today...it's snowy out there :)
"Even if you fall on your face, you're still moving forward."
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